Ok, so this was my PRIVATE POST....just now making it public (6/22/11)
Have you ever seen someone but have never really SEEN them? This post will clarify a few things. So this past week I've been an emotional wreck. I'm the least emotional person you will meet. I'm very rational and thorough with my thoughts. Before you get into a frenzy, nothing is wrong per say but I just hate not being in control of my thoughts...someone else is. I've never had someone consume my thoughts for such a long time and it is driving me CRAZY!
One year ago today, God brought me to my knees in tears, convicted my heart, and encouraged me...more like forced me to surrender my pen to him. This past year He's really taught me a lot about having healthy, pure, God-centered relationships with the opposite sex. My journey hasn't been perfect but I can really see God working in my life.
So there's someone in my life I've known for quite some time now. I see them quite often and we hang out a lot. I know quite a lot about them even their family. This person has always been there for me. They embody everything most girls would want in a relationship (God-fearing, smart, family loving, attractive, passionate individual) but I've never really seen this person as anything more than my friend. It clearly took a very long time but I feel like God's telling me "what you need has been in front of you this entire time you just need to remove your blinders and open your eyes." A part of me wants to yell on top of my lungs and say I FINALLY SEE YOU! But I can't...God's timing is so much more beautiful.
Played this way too much:
India Arie
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